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I had posted a 3 page rant on why I’m still freaked out (you know who)
called my wife Monday. I erased it soon after thinking about advice I’d
been given before of “get some balls”. But, it was up long enough for at
least one person to see it, and apparently read it.
So, the upshot is, I’m still freaked out.
Anyone who really needs the 3 page reason, I can send it to you.
(Really, it was up the length of time it took me to walk to the bathroom and back. Some folks, me too, hit that refresh an awful lot...)

Since I signed up for this, I feel obligated to post something.
So, I’ll start with why I hate it.

My parents never talked to each other in any kind of meaningful way. My father would remain silent no matter what my mother said, suggested or did.
But, if he didn’t like something, he would go and write it in his diary.

So, that became their primary means of communication. My mother would say and/or do things. Then, she’d sneak off to read what he wrote about it later. He knew she was doing and only wrote what he wanted her to hear. She knew he knew and would try and provoke greater reactions.

So, I hate the idea of people going around using this to communicate as it reminds me of just how screwed up my family was.

But, it has been very painfully pointed out to me that my avoidance of it has left me out of the loop on a great many things. Not the least of which is my wife, her feelings and her opinions of our life together. Had I been more in that loop, I doubt things would be as bad between us as they are now.

So, maybe screwed up communications is better than none at all. I don’t know.
But, what the hell, it’s free.