Question #14

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This is in answer to the frozendoll meme I started earlier.

#14) What your life was like 10 years ago
Ten years ago for me was a big time of change.

My wife and I were just starting Phoenix Swords and breaking away from the old group. This weekend is the anniversary of the last show we did with the old group.

My job was in the midst of a lot of change as well. I was working for the automated inspection company. In the 3 years I was there it went from a mostly mechanical to a mostly electrical focus. So, my job went from a good one with a lot of interesting work to a bad one with little respect or interesting work. This time ten years ago what when I was realizing it was never going to get better and starting to look for a new job. (Took half a year.)

The church my wife and I were in back then was also in the midst of a change. We had just changed pastors and been kicked out of where the church had been meeting for the previous 5 years. (A local school.) So, we were setting up shop in the ballroom of an Indian/Italian restaurant. The whole thing was as strange as the kabob over linguini. The pastor browbeat me into a job I didn’t want (leading the weekly set up/breakdown team) and I was trying to make my peace with that.

There were bigger changes coming that I had not yet seen.
The loss of our chance to have kids, and almost loss of my wife.
People I thought were my very best of friends turning and attacking me when I desperately needed help.

I’m not saying I was happier back then, because that isn’t true. But, I was clueless to the fact that the worst part of my life (at least so far) was looming just ahead and would fill a large percentage of the 10 years that separate me from that Frank. And there is something of a nostalgia for that state of mind.
As it says in that P!nk song “I want back my ignorance and bliss”.
But, as it says in the Eddie Money song “But I can’t go back, I know.”