Embrace the dark side
Oct. 6th, 2007 09:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
fbhjrWell, what the hell. As my wife said: “if you’re going to do the time, you might as well do he crime”.
So, I’ve decided to be the cruel, manipulative, abusive person I’ve been told I am.
After the night I had last night, I decided to do something this morning that I’ve wanted to do for a long time now. I had been reluctant to do it for many reasons, not the least being out right laziness. But, remembering Lou the other day made me think of a bunch of things and remember life is too short to put stuff off.
I know it is selfish of me to do this. But, as I said, I’ve decided to live down to expectations. So what if it’s only good for me and will cause pain (especially to me) in the long run? It’s what I want now, right?
I was worried about the legal implications, but from what I’ve read on line, I think I can get away with it.
Maybe if I had something else to do with my day I wouldn’t have chosen this. But, with no calls or visits from folks, only posts to the world about how bad I am, I decided to do what I thought was right.
So, it’s a beautiful day. I’m heading over to Northboro to do what I’ve wanted to do for ages. Who knows, maybe if it works out well I can drop by and see other folks too.
Wish me luck!
So, I’ve decided to be the cruel, manipulative, abusive person I’ve been told I am.
After the night I had last night, I decided to do something this morning that I’ve wanted to do for a long time now. I had been reluctant to do it for many reasons, not the least being out right laziness. But, remembering Lou the other day made me think of a bunch of things and remember life is too short to put stuff off.
I know it is selfish of me to do this. But, as I said, I’ve decided to live down to expectations. So what if it’s only good for me and will cause pain (especially to me) in the long run? It’s what I want now, right?
I was worried about the legal implications, but from what I’ve read on line, I think I can get away with it.
Maybe if I had something else to do with my day I wouldn’t have chosen this. But, with no calls or visits from folks, only posts to the world about how bad I am, I decided to do what I thought was right.
So, it’s a beautiful day. I’m heading over to Northboro to do what I’ve wanted to do for ages. Who knows, maybe if it works out well I can drop by and see other folks too.
Wish me luck!
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Date: 2007-10-06 02:47 pm (UTC)I need to change clothes, take a shower and rest some.
I knew it would be hard. But, I didn’t think it would be that hard. It seems so much easier on TV. I forget I’m not as young as I used to be.
I did find a perfect spot. A path in the woods I’ve driven by thousands of times. Who knew it ran next to a swamp? The football game in the park next door was very loud, which was a mixed blessing. I had to crank my iPod to even hear it. But, it meant everyone around was looking at the game and not the path leading to the park. And, no foot traffic to worry about.
I’m sure I’ll have some doubts when the costs come due, but right now I’m pretty happy about it.