I’m still freaked out

I had posted a 3 page rant on why I’m still freaked out (you know who)
called my wife Monday. I erased it soon after thinking about advice I’d
been given before of “get some balls”. But, it was up long enough for at
least one person to see it, and apparently read it.
So, the upshot is, I’m still freaked out.
Anyone who really needs the 3 page reason, I can send it to you.
(Really, it was up the length of time it took me to walk to the bathroom and back. Some folks, me too, hit that refresh an awful lot...)