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I’ve hurt the muscles in my chest. It can be hard for a middle aged fat
guy to remember that when my chest hurts in the middle of the night.

Last night I woke up with trouble breathing, my chest hurting and my heart
pounding.
It could be my allergies from sleeping with the window open, my hurt
muscles tensing up when I cough and my heart pounding because the above
woke me up suddenly. Or, it could be something worse. I’ve had lots of
tests for something worse, and they all come out negative. But, at 2 in
the morning it makes me worry.

But, last night when it happened, my wife woke up and rubbed my hurt chest,
making it feel much better. It is very reassuring for her to rub her hand
along the muscle and say “I can feel this one is very tense.” The fact she
can feel that it is surface muscles tensing makes me feel much better. It
reassures me that it is surface issues and not something deep.
When I had trouble getting back to sleep, she moved out to the living room
to sleep there while I un-wound from it.

It was very nice, and very comforting to have her care for me that way.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m always glad she’s there. I’m not saying it’s only
in times like this.
But, times like this are when I really need her to be there for me. And,
she is.