Better days

I’ve been feeling very sad lately.
I find it harder and harder to believe my marriage is going to survive.
Holly came back. I’m very, very happy she did. But, I don’t see how that will last.
I don’t see how I can keep her happy. I don’t see how I can keep her satisfied.
She’s said that leaving me the first time will make it easier to leave me again if she decides to.
She's got another man waiting who is more exciting and sexier than I am. He's kind to her where I'm an emotional assault to her every day.
I’m very afraid that any day she’s going to say “this isn’t worth it” and leave forever.
And, I don’t see anything I have to offer to stop that from happening.
Everything I’d like to count for reasons for her to stay she has already said weren’t enough when she left the first time.
One of these days I’m going to come home and find a note on my TV again.
And, that time she won’t come back.
I want to stop that from happening.
But, I haven’t a clue how to do it.