I hate wasting time

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There was a long list of things I wanted to do if I could get some time.
Restart my web comic.
Build a bunch of Lego kits I bought.
Write some stories.
Read some new sword manuals.
Get things ready for next month’s trip.
Visit some of the museums in the area where I have memberships.
Get things ready for the show we’re doing in New Jersey in 2 1/2 weeks.

It’s been 33 days I’ve been out of work, and I just sit here in my living room and stare at that stuff.
I have a total lack of motivation to start any of it.
Can’t think of anything funny to say for the comic.
All the stories I wanted to write no longer sound very interesting to me. The Lego kits aren’t exciting me. The manuals aren’t holding my attention.
Without a job I’m hesitant to plan much for the trip as I don’t know what my budget for it will be. The main part is paid for and all taken care of. I’ve still got to do the days before and day after the boat ride.
I don’t feel like going to the museums without my wife.
Since I have told the troupe I can’t pay for a hotel room for them, there isn’t too much to do. And, what there is I’m waiting for practice to go over with everyone.

I’ve done the laundry. I’ve done the dishes. I replaced the lost buttons on my wife’s dress. I did the shopping.

My brother called me again with another surreal conversation where he contradicted most of what he said yesterday. (He didn’t bring Ron when he visited my mother today, he didn’t have to work this afternoon, etc.)

I did have two calls about jobs. Both don’t seem likely to pan out.
The place I interviewed with last week asked for references, which is what they said would be the next step if they were still looking at me. So, that’s hopeful.

I feel I should do something with all this time.
But, have trouble mustering the interest for my options.